You ever get this sudden urge to just beat the crap out of some people you meet randomly? I do. I have mood swings like any other person. I can snap in a matter of seconds, just like a shark lashing out violently. I'm the master at pouting and throwing a temper tantrum when things don't go my way. I can be extremely argumentative and wont back down once I set my mind. I can be pretty judgmental towards others and not give a fuck on what they think or any one else thinks. For the most part I don't show this ugly side towards my friends or acquaintances. I'm actually the opposite when I'm in my normal state of being. By normal state of being meaning when nothing provokes or triggers me.
Sometimes something triggers me and that's when my state of being turns into a fuck you all I don't give a shit. How does this feel? There's this perverse sense of just wanting to well destroy. Destroy what? Who knows, your hopes or your good vibes basically anything good that I instantly find annoying. Some people may be thinking wow this sounds crazy. Hey guess what? I was crazy once, they put me in room, a room full of rats. Rats? I hate rats they drive me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once, they put me in a room, a room full of rats. Rats? I hate rats they drive me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once, they put me in a room, a room full of rats. Rats? I hate rats they drive me crazy.
And for the record, no I don't hate rats. I love rats. I'm a proud pet rat owner. So all you rat haters can go fuck off, cause you know what? Rats aren't gross or disgusting. They are smart and will lick you just like dogs do. They chitter chatter and snuggle up. So let me see here, that's probably one thing that triggers me, people that don't have respect for animals. People who abuse animals, should be sentence to death. Harsh? I don't think so. Is it fair? No, but then again life isn't fair. If life was fair then we would all be living in a utopia.
Hmmm do I think a utopia is possible? Sure why not, anything is possible! Of course if anything is possible then we can assume that their must be something that is impossible. Cause that in itself would be possible, get it? So where did we end up? Everywhere and nowhere. What did we learn? Everything and nothing. Oh my how fun it is to run around in circles chasing our reasoning to no end in sight! So back to the question of wow vanessa is crazy. Aren't we all crazy now? Thats it. We are all sane and insane together.
"It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not."
— André Gide
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