Trip to Thoughts

I've been thinking that most of my life is spent in front of my computer screen. I wake up stare at my cell phone for the time , get up for work then come back to my computer to watch stuff on Netflix, check my facebook games, play some xbox 360 on my other flat screen tv. It's normal to me and to pretty much everyone else that's in my generation. I would have to say if the house was on fire and I was able to take with me three items from my room it would be my computer, my tv, and my xbox 360. All of which are electronics, which I know they can be replaced in a heart beat, but what about all our data on those devices? Pictures, documents, saved game files, etc etc. ugh it would be horrible to lose all of that.
I was talking to my parents the other day how they were saying when they were growing up they didn't spend time in front of a computer screen or going on the internet like now. Well, obviously because they didn't grow up with all that stuff because it didn't really exist. Which is why I find it hard to relate to some of their advice and stories. It gets even worse with my grandparents on my dad's and mom's side. On my mom's side my grandmother is senile and doesn't even know who I am or who others are. She also only speaks Spanish which makes it even more impossible to have a conversation with her. So I don't even try to have a relationship with her.
On my dad's side I have papa Demetrio and mama Luz and even my great grandmother mama Lucita. Which they are sweet grandparents however again they only speak Spanish. I mean yeah I understand 90 % of Spanish language, but I don't speak it that often. I heard the whole blah blah blah story of my grandparents moving from mexico to america to start a new life, its nothing new pretty much every other Mexican has the exact same story. In other words I didn't find anything unique or special about it, even though I tried hard to find something. Because I can't relate to my grandparents I don't make an effort to go visit them or start a conversation. Why? Because there is nothing to talk about. I can't sit their and ask if they want to go play magic cards with me! I can't ask "Hey did you check out that funny youtube video about whatever?" I can't even ask what's your favorite movie, because they never grew up with tv or movies!

Now that the holiday's are around the corner I am actually dreading going to the family gatherings. Not because I don't like the people their, I love my family very much, but because I always end up bored. Bored out of my mind! Their's you know the grown up talks about "Oh how's school going? or Hows it going with your art?"  or "I heard you got a new job?" could the questions get any more automatic and boring? I might as well send a paragraph summarizing my list of stuff I did in the past year. It's I guess what one would label small talk or  polite talk. I'd rather just not have to deal with all of that. I'm 24 years old and I still feel like a kid at those gatherings. Last Christmas it was held at Jason's house which was okay, it was a little cramp in their since lol our family is pretty big. The only good thing about it was the food, other than that our family gatherings tend to be a real snooze. My dad always insisting on doing sing a longs to songs that are COMPLETELY OUTDATED that are in Spanish which only like 1 % of my family knows. And then theirs that whole bit of holding hands in a circle and praying before we eat, which is also super duper boring. I don't even believe in God and yet I'm socially forced to sit their quietly holding hands and pretending to pray. So fuck it who knows? Maybe this year I will ditch the boring party and play computer games or watch tv or do something that is fun and entertaining. If people get mad at me not showing up oh well that's their problem because everyone is in control of themselves, others can't control me. My little sister last year didn't come to the Christmas party and now I think I will probably do that same. If my family members are reading this don't take it personally, because as of right now I'm so sick of tradition when it comes to Christmas gatherings.

Have to think of outside the box, and by that meaning I just wish it was different. Like an epic Christmas. That picture is how awesome it would be to just be carefree.  But you know since I don't believe in God then theirs no point in celebrating Christmas cause its a christian/catholic belief holiday. I just went by default cause my parents took me as a kid and now that I'm older maybe now I can start deciding for myself if I would like to attend or not. Good thing we live in America and not in some totalitarian country where your'e forced into doing something you don't believe in or don't like doing.
Anyways, that's it on this blog ! :)

Once again, we come to the Holiday Season, a deeply religious time that each of us observes, in his own way, by going to the mall of his choice.
Dave Barry